From: The Girl You Knew in Different Hues
Kaiyah Ellison
From “All My Reds” Poem #2
My empire's on fire
Burning down around me as I weep on my knees.
The flames rose higher, encasing me in their scorching heat. I feel it in my bones,
The heat of the licks as the flames come closer.
How they dance around me as if they aren't here to harm. They feel safe, protective, strong, and destructive.
All as if it is me who is to wield them.
Me who controls such destruction.
And this time, it all clicks.
The flames are me.
Dancing in the destruction,
Gleaming beautifully in pain,
Shielding the little me with my flames to protect.
Allowing me to become what they feared.
My empire is on fire.
Shining gorgeously against the light of the sun.
Proving to be the most beautiful through the scorching pain.
This is me.
I am,
The empire on fire,
The protector of the little girl in me, The destruction,
I am the flame,
And they are me.
From “All My Blues” Poem #5
The skeletons show how special I am.
How they and only they could judge me.
How what they have hidden within their bones is my downfall.
With their opening, I have been tested twice.
Tested my worth and if I am capable of more than what they deem I am.
Their sickeningly sweet cackles swarm my mind while their claws gently caress my insides as if they provide solace.
And is it bad that, in a way, I have begun to accept it?
Accept that they may be the ones to love me for everything I am and have done.
No, for they are my skeletons and mine alone.
They are mine to love and mine alone.
They are mine to hate and mine alone.
They are mine to learn and mine alone.
And if them being mine will be the only love I am to receive,
Then them alone will I cherish.
